one thing i hate about myslef.

i love the blog prompts on her find here blog thing. one thing thatd id change in a heart beat is not knowing my real father. when i was two days old he left.. i never met him. last summer i was in florida and my moms friend from highschool came to my aunts house where we were and started talkin to me. and she was saying he lives where she does and i wanted to meet him. my mom didnt want me anywhere near him. but i lied to my mom and got her friend to take me.i didnt get to see him cause he was at work but he got my number and so did my grandma? she was like i love you.. no.. she never even seen me... he called me later that night and we tlkd i yelled at him and he kept apologizing, i usually give people second chances but a child is something you never leave behind. i went back to georgia and he kept txtn me and talkin to me and it was good i guess. then out of no where i stop getting messages from him. lost him all over again. i see why my mom didnt want me to be apart of him. no i have a stepdad and without him id be nothing right now. probably still in florida in the cheapest hotel ever cuase my mom was single and had two kids. im a strong believer in everything happens for a reason and God showed me that life always has ups and downs but in Gods hands there will be more ups then downs. thank you God, mom, and dad.